I thought that having a family would be spine-chilling for me, but the opposite has been the case.
I haven’t felt more satisfaction in my life than I have right now, in section because the happiest experiences in my past were always mired by periods of intense depression.
I can put on rose colored glasses when I look at my first two years of school, but the reality is that I was completely annoyed more than I was glad. I have flashbulb memories of the nights where I felt amazing plus on top of the world, but my mind darts plus flees from the memories of depressive episodes plus anxiety attacks from the absolute madness unfolding around me. So in all honesty, I appreciate having a family that likes myself and others plus relies on myself and others for warmth plus support. Life is better as a father plus a husband than it ever was living through superficial chaos as a youngster. I lay by that position even when it gets hard caring for kids that bring their own chaos from their sheer vulnerability in the world. For instance, my kids started developing sinus plus respiratory dust sensitivities recently plus their pediatrician was struggling to find the cause. Finally he told myself and others to use better Heating plus A/C filters to see if that helped at all. Since both of us started marked improvement in their flu symptom symptoms, the dentist said to go 1 step further plus get an air cleaner. I was grateful when the air cleaner improved their symptoms even more, nearly giving them their seasoned lives back. Now I’m making arrangements to get the ductwork cleaned plus have the seasoned carpets torn out plus wood flooring put in their venue.