I thought that having a family would be spine-chilling for me, however the opposite has been the case.
I haven’t felt more delight in my life than I have right now, in part because the happiest experiences in my past were always mired by periods of intense depression.
I can put on rose colored glasses when I look at my first more than one years of school, however the reality is that I was completely angry more than I was glad. I have flashbulb memories of the afternoons where I felt amazing plus on top of the world, however my mind darts plus flees from the memories of depressive episodes plus anxiety attacks from the absolute madness unfolding around me. So in all honesty, I love having a family that loves me plus relies on me for warmth plus support. Life is better as a father plus a husband than it ever was residing through superficial chaos as a youngster. I stand by that position even when it gets tough caring for kids that bring their own chaos from their sheer vulnerability in the world. For instance, my kids started developing sinus plus respiratory dust irritations recently plus their pediatrician was struggling to find the cause. Finally he told me to use better Heating as well as Air Conditioning filters to see if that helped at all. Since we started marked improvement in their dust sensitivity symptoms, the doctor said to go 1 step further plus get an media media air cleaner. I was grateful when the media media air cleaner improved their symptoms even more, nearly giving them their old lives back. Now I’m making arrangements to get the air duct cleaned plus have the old carpets torn out plus wood flooring put in their site.